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About Me Premium Member One who left DA and came back! Valerie Banman21/Female/Canada Recent Activity Deviant for 6 Years
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As In A DreamRunning  Faint  Screaming  And alone.  I can’t catch you  Like the many times before  My legs grow weary,  My heart is numb,  And Stop.  I can go no more.  This game,  As in a dream,  Was fun so many years ago  But I cant keep up with you  And your fire  No longer keeps me warm.  Fall,  Still,  The dewy grass beneath my cheek  I don’t know how I got this far  When  All the while  I felt so small and weak.  Didn’t you hear me?  I called your name so loud!  I swear the angels sang,  your praises rang, As In A Dream
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Love Letter to the MoonSparkle  Invincible  And you see  
Down,  Drip,  Waxing when I wane…  There you are.  Steady,  Sturdy  Taking all the blame  I will steal from you  The things that make you great  Just give me a kiss…  And I’ll give it all back.  So cold,  
Up there,  So alone,  Surrounded by things that don’t make sense  I don’t believe in angels  But you seem to have wings  I don’t know where you got that halo  It’s not the one I gave you.  There’s someone else….  Torture.  Red Harvest.  Pa Love Letter to the Moon
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ShockShock  I swallowed the ice  Whole  
And it is stuck  Cold sweat  What the hell?  This isn’t supposed to-  Not allowed to  Happen  Superman was  Supposed to live  That black ice  Green light  STOP!  Turned red  I turned and read  That you....  Pulse  Bump bump BOOM!  All over  And accross  Our hearts ache  Spinning heads  HELLO  You are here  Sigh  Sign says dead  But you are there  Smiling like you always do  Imperfect things  Broken dreams  Glow  Where did you think-  Purple Shock
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  • Current Residence: Edmonton, Alberta
  • Interests: the arts, friendship, psychology, philosophy, silence, dreaming
  • Favourite band or musician: Tori Amos, Nirvana, Blue October, Metric, Alkaline Trio, Marilyn Manson
  • Favourite genre of music: metal/rock/alternative
  • Favourite artist: Van Gogh, Allison Tunis
  • Favourite poet or writer: Allen Ginsberg, Jack Kerouac, Emily Bronte, Jiddu Krishnamurti, Matthew Capowski
  • Favourite photographer: Robb McCaghren
  • Wallpaper of choice: retro
  • Skin of choice: freckled and pale ;)
  • Favourite gaming platform: wii
  • Favourite cartoon character: Betty Boop
  • Personal Quote: Every artist paints himself, but who gave him the damned brushes?
  • Tools of the Trade: Everything :P

You have to know how much this hurts...

Sat Nov 7, 2009, 8:45 PM
  • Mood: Depressed
  • Listening to: the ticking of my clock...
  • Watching: my phone... maybe he'll call?
  • Drinking: whatever it is, it isn't strong enough!
:blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose:

I just need to get this out... One of the people I love most in the world hasn't talked to me since my birthday... 6 months. I broke his heart... I really don't know how to fix it... or if I ever can. One of my most recent poems is about him... God, I wish you knew how much you mean to me! So, this is the email I JUST sent him...
:blackrose:





Hey xxxxx,

I could start this by saying "it's been awhile"... but it's been done. And, it seems you have intentionally stopped talking to me... Because it's not "like" you to not even call...
So I'm going to make this short.


I miss you.... soo much.

You were the BEST friend I've ever had... and at times, more...

I miss all those weekends we were together... and the phone calls late at night. Hell, even the drinking. The loud music/TV/Call of Duty, and the bitchy neighbors... some of the best days of my life.

I can't get you out of my head... I worry. I hope you're living your dream...

I miss your insight and extraordinary intelligence... More than you could know.

I feel like shit... as I'm sure I should... maybe in another universe the stars were aligned? (I'm sorry... more than I've ever been... but you've gotta know how much this hurts!)

I need closure if you're going to continue with not talking to me... Seriously. Please just call so I can say goodbye... My number hasn't changed... (780-xxx-xxxx)

I love you, always have... Take that any way you want to...

I just always want to know that you're ok, and that your finally happy...

Please, at the very least, write back... Even if it's to say "Fuck You!!"...

Val

:blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose::blackrose:
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~lianaillo Sep 7, 2009, 1:33:19 PM
Hey! Thanks for the fav and the watch!!! LOVE YA!!!! ;)

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Mood: Affection *elisar-azalea2 Sep 7, 2009, 1:45:55 PM
Thank YOU!! :)

I looked through your gallery earlier today and couldn't help noticing how effing good you're getting! Like WOW!!!! :jawdrop:

I really haven't done anything, except for a few poems, in what seems like forever... But coming online for the first time in about 8 months (I know, I'm a bad deviant... wasting my subscription like that!) has made me realize how much I miss being creative... So, as soon as my new apartment is unpacked (I just moved for the ninth time in 3 years... yuck), I'm gonna get crackin' and do something new. I think my first project is to do a new and improved version of my Waitress pic... that damned thing is so old! And it kinda hurts to look at it... lol.

Anyways, it's great to see a truly familiar face here :heart:

Take care, and be well

Val

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It is no measure of good health to live in a sick society. ~Krishnamurti
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~lianaillo Sep 7, 2009, 2:31:16 PM
You're too kind! ^_^' What happened to all of your drawings and sketches? They were AMAZING! I was kinda sad to see that they weren't there. You are SOOO good at sketching!!! And colouring!!!

By the way, YOU ARE GORGEOUS in your pictures!!!! ;)

Nic

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If wings were all we needed to fly, then it wouldn't be so hard.
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*elisar-azalea2 Sep 7, 2009, 2:45:14 PM
awe :blush:

I went through a weird "self destructive" phase and deleted sooo much stuff... and now I regret it terribly...
Also, I don't have a scanner, which makes it difficult to get my work up anyways :(
I think that may be something I have to work on...
Because, damn it, I have some good stuff that needs to go up!!

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It is no measure of good health to live in a sick society. ~Krishnamurti
:iconlianaillo:
~lianaillo Sep 8, 2009, 9:30:11 AM
Most definitely!!!! Can't wait until you're problem is solved!!! ;P

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If wings were all we needed to fly, then it wouldn't be so hard.
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~squallleonhart May 25, 2009, 8:45:45 AM
:party: Happy Birthday!!:party:

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=Romaji May 25, 2009, 3:12:33 AM
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On your birthday, special one,
I wish that all your dreams come true.
May your day be filled with joy,
Wonderful gifts and goodies, too.
On your day I wish for you, favorite people to embrace,
Loving smiles and caring looks,
That earthly gifts cannot replace.
I wish you fine and simple pleasures
I wish you many years of laughter
I wish you all of life's best treasures
I wish you happily ever after!

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Love that lives in the heart cannot be so easily terminated by time. Even though the encounter is brief its impression shall last a lifetime. No one can change the direction of love that lives in the heart. If you have loved that in itself is the answer.
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=X-eltheeb-X May 25, 2009, 2:14:58 AM
Happy Birthday :cake::party:


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:bulletblue:Out of my mind. Back in five minutes :rofl:
:superman: I can love u like no one can..I can be ur superman :superman:<~Her Super Mn9oor 8-)
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!Dreadful-Phantom Oct 30, 2008, 10:55:51 AM
Thankyou for being a dedicated watcher of my artwork. I just wanted to let you know in order to continue watching my artwork please follow me here ..new deviantart gallery here : [link] :iconpapercutphantom:
Just encase you didnt know >_n :heart:
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